should i change my course?

23 of july 6.20pm

i have been thinking of it few months ago, some of my classmates are planning to change too
and today finally my class rep ask some opinion from my lecturer
and guess what the lecturer is that one i hate the most! lolxx
but these two weeks he change a lot
because he knew that we are talking bad about him
somehow i can see till his disappointed face on us

just now everyone is surrounding him
the feeling is fantastic, we have not so united before

i am still struggling of my course.........

today is raining

18 of july 10.13pm

today from morning till now i was very sad
i have cried out everything that i could
but seem like can't finish
isn't because of my period?
or that is just my excuse?

yesterday i was sick badly
can't even come down from bed

if someone you care about cry in front of you, you will how?
act nothing? sad also? or just let it be lar .....

dear, how you think of our relationship today?
you always said i'm stubborn, how about you? i need an explain you also don't give then you start to shout like hell on me again
isn't i together with you is let you to shout with?
i'm tired ..................
if we are single now, there's no any problem between us now

i think you love others more than me
let me prove to you want?
1. that day at school i asked you to go zoo with me, but then how you told me? zoo again? nothing to see also. but why your cousin just asked you go then you got to go? why? why? why you always treat others better than me? i rather to be that others, you know?
2. firstly your friend want to eat at canteen 1 but then i told you earlier that i want canteen 2 you said don't want la, canteen 2 nothing to eat also. later, your friends want eat at canteen 2 but then you agree with him, may i know is why?
3. i asked you, why i always get scolded but not your friends? you told me because you love me. isn't true? then i shall be your friend, better.

still got......... and it won't last.
family and friends come first then only me right?
this world no people will love me right? i'm alone?

freedom? i don't think i need more freedom, is enough for me.

i need some tissue before i start to write a blog, always.
these days, i keep think of beer when i sad, should i drunk myself?

i want to kill account!!!!!

9 june 6.00pm

again, i'm at tarc library
these days i feel very lazy to blogging here
if really got extra time, i also will go play my facebook especially my texas poker.
i want to reach 1m ler ................... but is very hard to me

now my purpose for coming here is outside is raining already and i waiting my dear.
i so wish to play my facebook here also but don't know why i can't enter
haiz .........

today is my accounts day
account lecture and tutorial in the same day
every time after account tutorial i feel very tired
during tutorial period i feel like i'm having a war
my lecturer and tutor are same guy
i can tell you this guy are really s*cks and HAMSAP
i hate IT, not him anymore
next next week will be my account test, how can i do it?
and that fellow was telling us this test is damn tough, should i listen to him?
i think i should just read, read, read!!

what's life actually about?
i have just done my assignment then now come a test again

i was still can't enter my facebook, i want change computer, see you!!