today is raining

18 of july 10.13pm

today from morning till now i was very sad
i have cried out everything that i could
but seem like can't finish
isn't because of my period?
or that is just my excuse?

yesterday i was sick badly
can't even come down from bed

if someone you care about cry in front of you, you will how?
act nothing? sad also? or just let it be lar .....

dear, how you think of our relationship today?
you always said i'm stubborn, how about you? i need an explain you also don't give then you start to shout like hell on me again
isn't i together with you is let you to shout with?
i'm tired ..................
if we are single now, there's no any problem between us now

i think you love others more than me
let me prove to you want?
1. that day at school i asked you to go zoo with me, but then how you told me? zoo again? nothing to see also. but why your cousin just asked you go then you got to go? why? why? why you always treat others better than me? i rather to be that others, you know?
2. firstly your friend want to eat at canteen 1 but then i told you earlier that i want canteen 2 you said don't want la, canteen 2 nothing to eat also. later, your friends want eat at canteen 2 but then you agree with him, may i know is why?
3. i asked you, why i always get scolded but not your friends? you told me because you love me. isn't true? then i shall be your friend, better.

still got......... and it won't last.
family and friends come first then only me right?
this world no people will love me right? i'm alone?

freedom? i don't think i need more freedom, is enough for me.

i need some tissue before i start to write a blog, always.
these days, i keep think of beer when i sad, should i drunk myself?