hapenningssss

i can't breath. too many things stuck in my head.
i would like to clarify that is not knowledge in my head but tons of assignment. SIGH!
i keep run away from the reality, i am still enjoying but once i think back. GG.COM

this coming Tuesday my English role play presentation.
marketing and monetary assignment is near the dead line.
next, my individual assignment, presentation again. is had been a long time for the last individual presentation.
and others more.
how should i cope with it? =(
and my Saturday class is even making me more tired.

I"M TOTALLY LOST OF MYSELF.

那一天

曾经我对你说过那番话，也又再地请求你。
那永远对我来说都是一条疤。
每每我想起那件事，我都觉得真的很不开心。
如果那天的结局有改变，那今天的我也会有所改变。
是上天的安排？对还是错？过了要一年了，我还是不懂。
而且我很固执，执着，对某些事情放不下。

有时在想，这就是人生嘛。。。
在不同的选择里，有不同的出路。并没有说为的好或不好。

现在，我只想好好读书，谁都不想靠。

a qiuck update

today is Friday and I'm right now at Klang.
usually i should still be at KL for Saturday class but was called off for this Saturday.
i shall be super at home. a! like finally i can back to my home for rest.
unfortunately, 'he' again suddenly want to go Pangkor. not only with him, but also his parents.
u shall wonder why is it can go travel but still unhappy? i also don't know.
and again like usual i will tell my parents as well.
my dad was like seeing me with the eyes, 'again'?
mom is telling the same thing, 'good',everyday run there and here...
i have been told my mom is not my want and obviously i can't reject. =)
SO, I'm heading to Pangkor soon.

i received a letter from college yesterday.
'sorry to say that your appeal was not considered.'
i think back my program supervisor again, i hate her more than a lot.
but is still me the one never study hard.

last Wednesday, i went Times Square with fellow friends.
eating BBQ Plaza is always my favourite. i have been influence another friend again to be my gang. LOL
i would conclude my post with...

I SPENT A LOT THAT DAY.
BUT IS FUN!
=)

email

past few days, i have been sent out an email and this afternoon i received her reply.
this email is so much important to me.
i saw a few sentences from that email and i started to read.
after read it, it bother my day. i shall knew it earlier.
she totally destroy my hope, she don't even care to help me more, she is the type of everything must follow rules and regulations.
why?

i keep thinking about what else more motivate me to study hard without any scholarship.
i know is a wrong way thinking of it.

i have typed a letter.
i hope to get a 'better' reply.

result

yes, my result was out!
i having hard feeling although i passed with flying colours. i'm truly happy. for the first time, i scored so well. i shall be proud of myself.
the problem i facing now is my scholarship gone! actually, i have been expected since i get my diploma scholarship. however, when the incident really happen, we will still upset. this is how human behave right? hoping to get this but after achieving this, u demand for higher. LOL whether is it good, is all depends.
i just need 0.0017% more cgpa to get 50% scholarship. but now, i get nothing. however, i still trying my best to appeal, although u, she, he saying this is no way. i just don't care! i wan to try it myself. i know if i never trying to find ways, i will regret one day.
not because of i have no money to pay, it just an award showing u are really studying hard. i want to be a scholar holder!

anyway, i'm super super happy with my results!!! =D
it worth =)

sad for a night

i'm gaining. =( which make me super upset.
i shall cut down my meals.

and tomorrow i'm going to penang, i used to love the food. haiz
i don't want to be 50, i don't want!!!

let's see how after my last penang trip before my semester starts on monday.
yes, time flies my new semester advanced diploma first year starts.
i feel extremely nervous, i'm fear of i can't handle well.
and of course, my results are coming out as well.
i'm on the edge, this time i could only rise but not drop, hopefully.

FML

early in the morning, my mood ruined!

later,
sunway piramid?
i can shopping?
penang tomorrow?

I GOT NO MOOD AT ALL!!!!

你有得决定麽？你没有选择！
这是我人生中听到最心痛的话。
我也是人，我的心是肉做的。

在这个世界上，根本不能你想怎样就怎样！
人生是现实的，你有钱就有机会说话。
依靠别人，你的一生就会给别人看扁，那你活着就没意义。

I'm totally insane right now.

纯粹地写

今天，是我假期中待在家里的第一天。
其实，明明昨天说好要去那里玩。可是，每次我过于期待，就会失望。
我是真的很失望！

还有一个多星期就要开学了，我真的还想去旅行。。。

考试时，就会想很多很多的计划，可是，现在我发霉了。
可是，我又不想开学。
我只想玩。=）

what is my next step?

i am right now encounter the problem that usually friends will ask me.
i never think of that before.

that is,
'both of you have been together for so many years, what are you all usually talk about? is there still any topic?'
last time, i would be very proud to answer, got! still got a lot more! we talk and share anything we could.
but, how's now?
we no longer have so much to talk about it anymore.
is not i wouldn't share, is just there is someone who no longer want to be my listener.
SIGH!
is this every couple facing?
and anyone could tell me what to do?
sometimes, i do feel bored and really struggling hard inside myself that i don't know who to share with. i don't really expose myself all to friends.

i would bear in my mind that no one would want to know everything about you, so keep it to yourself, no matter is your sadness or happiness. is actually non of other people business.
AHHHH! is true!

i am wondering how would be after 10 years? 20 years?
i always wish the day would not come, i know is not a good time to me, i rather to have the world end like this without my notice. i shall be much more happier.

to those who really know me, they know, i am a silly girl because i think too much!
what i usually do when i am alone is, hide myself from anyone, crying silently. non stop thinking all those bad things and make my tears flow. that's me.

thanks for reading.

my sem break is going to an end

i had lots of fun during my sem break this time. thanks a lot to my MR G!
first was Penang which was only me and him
next was Genting, with his family
last one was Fraser Hill with his aunt
so sad, i can't upload my photos, sigh!

yea, at last i worked for two days as ambi pur promoter only. haha
a lot of things were happened during that 2 days
so unlucky, i met a bad supervisor, i feel like killing him now!
is a long story to tell here what's happening so just forget it.
the following days i did receive a lot of calls from job agents but I'm not free =), busy of travelling, great right?
so I'm waiting forward for my next sem break to work more hard =D hopefully lar
and i had spent all my salary of that 2 days of working =)
oh, this coming weekend i may going for work too
erm, more towards on helping
and Monday my new sem starts! friends, we will be meeting again.

FRAPPUCCINO 50% until this Friday
i had enjoyed it for today and yesterday, tomorrow as well! =D
i go for starbucks not because of its coffee but is green tea, chocolate and vanilla! anyone same to me? this must be crazy! haha

no more enjoying my life anymore, is time to get my mood back to study
is my last sem and i will get my diploma
can i get 50% scholarship for my advanced diploma? =)

good night, people!

this weekend

actually i wish to write a lot at my previous blog, but i don't know how to express it out.
LOVE, PAST, APPRECIATE

anyway, hold tight anything you having and doing right now.

oh, back to my real post
this Saturday and Sunday I'm going to work at Aeon Bukit Tinggi as Ambi Pur promoter, my second time
and now i'm just waiting time flies to go for training at 8pm later at Aeon
i love my Saturday and Sunday always but this time i choose to go for work
may be is the last time, who knows right?

I'm scare of how if i didn't do it well? scare this and that, ish...
i should learn to independent, someone would totally agree with it, and is true
no one should depend on anyone, so do i

have a nice day ahead, everyone. =)

something hit my heart deeply =(

what else can i do to let me think positive way except singing?
HAIZ
i don't know what is my next step anymore.
stay or move?
that's all, i don't wish to elaborate more about it. SIEN

erm share something happy will probably make my reader happier?
i currently asking for a soya bean promoter part time job.
RM100 per day, hopefully i can get it!
work for 6 days then i can get RM600???
haha... think too much.

anyway, wish me GOOD LUCK! =)

we are so happy today! =)

who do i referring to?
should i say all?
but i guess i can say that most of us are very happy today!!
who are most of us pula???
come on, don't try to turn around the bush anymore.
is my CLASSMATES!!!

and now you all should wondering why??
LOL
we just finished our presentation for entrepreneur subject
for the very first time, our tutor praised us well done!!
can you imagine how happy we are??
she putting lots of hope on us, i guess we did not disappointed her?!
even though we all are not really well done, but she is still telling us so, i think is a kind of motivation to our future?
and before we went off, we had taken a photo with our tutor for memory
is so damn fun to communicate and play with this tutor every Thursday noon during our tutorial
her big name is ms. CASSANDRA
i guess all of us love her so much!!!

still remember the first time when she enter our class
the first question in our mind is that, is she a man or woman???
hahahahahaha
she has a quite fierce face when she is not smiling, that's true! =)

she has been teaching us for the past 6 weeks
next week will be the last week
we SHALL miss her again =)

we love to listen her story a lot
how is the real world actually is....
how she manage her time, flying there and here....
what innovation products she know...
and so on....

i don't think she will be teaching us again
now i would like to say I MISS HER A LOT!!!! =(
can i take a photo with her next week? probably is yes!!!

rest time

yea, I'm now at computer lab. doing nothing.==
after finished browsing my facebook, nothing else i can do here.
no game, no video.
i have just deleted my friendster account too.

i just done with my test this morning
i didn't really do well, i don't really know what my tutor wants every time she gives out questions HAIZ
hopefully can get better than the previous test, that's all i hope even though just improve one mark

SPM released by today, we are expected he will get super duper good results
he did it well!! except for Chinese only get b+

I'm having class later at 2pm
since 12pm, i had been sitting here
supposingly i am not going for the lecture later but my bf left me here
so, wait for hours why not i just go instead of staying at school for waiting him again

o yea, tomorrow I'm going to present again.
50% for my presentation marks, i am wonder how the marks are being allocated???

this weekend, i wish to go somewhere else for relaxing my mind after all my coursework
anywhere?? herm, actually i wish to go genting.

sem break

FINALLY, i got the mood to update my blog in this early morning.
i just finished my final yesterday.
so I'm now so freeeeeee.....
and this time my sem break will be very long, until 13 of February.

actually, i also don't know what should i write.

erm, I'm now at school, waiting my bf finish his last paper also.
the reason i brought my laptop along with me is to wish watch pps at here.
but end up, can't.
I'm damn bored right now.

yea, cny is around the corner.
but, i haven't buy my clothes yet.
girls, where should i buy?

this coming Saturday will be going Malacca.
next week going genting.
anyone?

I'm now have to fully utilise my time before cny
i want to cut my hair, have a facial wash and shopping!!!