email

past few days, i have been sent out an email and this afternoon i received her reply.
this email is so much important to me.
i saw a few sentences from that email and i started to read.
after read it, it bother my day. i shall knew it earlier.
she totally destroy my hope, she don't even care to help me more, she is the type of everything must follow rules and regulations.
why?

i keep thinking about what else more motivate me to study hard without any scholarship.
i know is a wrong way thinking of it.

i have typed a letter.
i hope to get a 'better' reply.

result

yes, my result was out!
i having hard feeling although i passed with flying colours. i'm truly happy. for the first time, i scored so well. i shall be proud of myself.
the problem i facing now is my scholarship gone! actually, i have been expected since i get my diploma scholarship. however, when the incident really happen, we will still upset. this is how human behave right? hoping to get this but after achieving this, u demand for higher. LOL whether is it good, is all depends.
i just need 0.0017% more cgpa to get 50% scholarship. but now, i get nothing. however, i still trying my best to appeal, although u, she, he saying this is no way. i just don't care! i wan to try it myself. i know if i never trying to find ways, i will regret one day.
not because of i have no money to pay, it just an award showing u are really studying hard. i want to be a scholar holder!

anyway, i'm super super happy with my results!!! =D
it worth =)

sad for a night

i'm gaining. =( which make me super upset.
i shall cut down my meals.

and tomorrow i'm going to penang, i used to love the food. haiz
i don't want to be 50, i don't want!!!

let's see how after my last penang trip before my semester starts on monday.
yes, time flies my new semester advanced diploma first year starts.
i feel extremely nervous, i'm fear of i can't handle well.
and of course, my results are coming out as well.
i'm on the edge, this time i could only rise but not drop, hopefully.

FML

early in the morning, my mood ruined!

later,
sunway piramid?
i can shopping?
penang tomorrow?

I GOT NO MOOD AT ALL!!!!

你有得决定麽？你没有选择！
这是我人生中听到最心痛的话。
我也是人，我的心是肉做的。

在这个世界上，根本不能你想怎样就怎样！
人生是现实的，你有钱就有机会说话。
依靠别人，你的一生就会给别人看扁，那你活着就没意义。

I'm totally insane right now.

纯粹地写

今天，是我假期中待在家里的第一天。
其实，明明昨天说好要去那里玩。可是，每次我过于期待，就会失望。
我是真的很失望！

还有一个多星期就要开学了，我真的还想去旅行。。。

考试时，就会想很多很多的计划，可是，现在我发霉了。
可是，我又不想开学。
我只想玩。=）