email

past few days, i have been sent out an email and this afternoon i received her reply.
this email is so much important to me.
i saw a few sentences from that email and i started to read.
after read it, it bother my day. i shall knew it earlier.
she totally destroy my hope, she don't even care to help me more, she is the type of everything must follow rules and regulations.
why?

i keep thinking about what else more motivate me to study hard without any scholarship.
i know is a wrong way thinking of it.

i have typed a letter.
i hope to get a 'better' reply.

result

yes, my result was out!
i having hard feeling although i passed with flying colours. i'm truly happy. for the first time, i scored so well. i shall be proud of myself.
the problem i facing now is my scholarship gone! actually, i have been expected since i get my diploma scholarship. however, when the incident really happen, we will still upset. this is how human behave right? hoping to get this but after achieving this, u demand for higher. LOL whether is it good, is all depends.
i just need 0.0017% more cgpa to get 50% scholarship. but now, i get nothing. however, i still trying my best to appeal, although u, she, he saying this is no way. i just don't care! i wan to try it myself. i know if i never trying to find ways, i will regret one day.
not because of i have no money to pay, it just an award showing u are really studying hard. i want to be a scholar holder!

anyway, i'm super super happy with my results!!! =D
it worth =)

sad for a night

i'm gaining. =( which make me super upset.
i shall cut down my meals.

and tomorrow i'm going to penang, i used to love the food. haiz
i don't want to be 50, i don't want!!!

let's see how after my last penang trip before my semester starts on monday.
yes, time flies my new semester advanced diploma first year starts.
i feel extremely nervous, i'm fear of i can't handle well.
and of course, my results are coming out as well.
i'm on the edge, this time i could only rise but not drop, hopefully.

FML

early in the morning, my mood ruined!

later,
sunway piramid?
i can shopping?
penang tomorrow?

I GOT NO MOOD AT ALL!!!!

你有得决定麽？你没有选择！
这是我人生中听到最心痛的话。
我也是人，我的心是肉做的。

在这个世界上，根本不能你想怎样就怎样！
人生是现实的，你有钱就有机会说话。
依靠别人，你的一生就会给别人看扁，那你活着就没意义。

I'm totally insane right now.

纯粹地写

今天，是我假期中待在家里的第一天。
其实，明明昨天说好要去那里玩。可是，每次我过于期待，就会失望。
我是真的很失望！

还有一个多星期就要开学了，我真的还想去旅行。。。

考试时，就会想很多很多的计划，可是，现在我发霉了。
可是，我又不想开学。
我只想玩。=）

what is my next step?

i am right now encounter the problem that usually friends will ask me.
i never think of that before.

that is,
'both of you have been together for so many years, what are you all usually talk about? is there still any topic?'
last time, i would be very proud to answer, got! still got a lot more! we talk and share anything we could.
but, how's now?
we no longer have so much to talk about it anymore.
is not i wouldn't share, is just there is someone who no longer want to be my listener.
SIGH!
is this every couple facing?
and anyone could tell me what to do?
sometimes, i do feel bored and really struggling hard inside myself that i don't know who to share with. i don't really expose myself all to friends.

i would bear in my mind that no one would want to know everything about you, so keep it to yourself, no matter is your sadness or happiness. is actually non of other people business.
AHHHH! is true!

i am wondering how would be after 10 years? 20 years?
i always wish the day would not come, i know is not a good time to me, i rather to have the world end like this without my notice. i shall be much more happier.

to those who really know me, they know, i am a silly girl because i think too much!
what i usually do when i am alone is, hide myself from anyone, crying silently. non stop thinking all those bad things and make my tears flow. that's me.

thanks for reading.

my sem break is going to an end

i had lots of fun during my sem break this time. thanks a lot to my MR G!
first was Penang which was only me and him
next was Genting, with his family
last one was Fraser Hill with his aunt
so sad, i can't upload my photos, sigh!

yea, at last i worked for two days as ambi pur promoter only. haha
a lot of things were happened during that 2 days
so unlucky, i met a bad supervisor, i feel like killing him now!
is a long story to tell here what's happening so just forget it.
the following days i did receive a lot of calls from job agents but I'm not free =), busy of travelling, great right?
so I'm waiting forward for my next sem break to work more hard =D hopefully lar
and i had spent all my salary of that 2 days of working =)
oh, this coming weekend i may going for work too
erm, more towards on helping
and Monday my new sem starts! friends, we will be meeting again.

FRAPPUCCINO 50% until this Friday
i had enjoyed it for today and yesterday, tomorrow as well! =D
i go for starbucks not because of its coffee but is green tea, chocolate and vanilla! anyone same to me? this must be crazy! haha

no more enjoying my life anymore, is time to get my mood back to study
is my last sem and i will get my diploma
can i get 50% scholarship for my advanced diploma? =)

good night, people!